Sunday, January 31, 2010 ♥ 10:57 PM

Shall I give up? i dont know......

somtime when those words repeat-ly came out from ur mouth.. I will ask myself... should I?

I think u still dont get me.. Still dont understand the situation.. Is not i dont want, is I cant... there is a very big different between this 2 words...

When i know u are gonna say those things. i again start thinking... should i? and should i ask u about it? i dont know... i am too scared to loss u... i dare not ask.. just keeping everything to myself....

i start to dislke u when u say all those thing... today say tomorrow also say...

i think u say it means u mean it... ok than... what to do... i dont know... how i wish i can not feel all this... can not knowing all this...

i dont want to give up... but u make me feel like to... ur pressure are forcing me to....

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 ♥ 11:56 PM

shall post the pic i found on his facebook wall...

Am i in wrong again? He said is just a joke. I look at it i can fee is sort of a joke. but why? I dont get myself.. Why i have to think this way? I realise why.. Because this few days he treat me real good. never yell at me.. keep on baby here and there... i know something is wrong... when i asked him yesterday... he said is a joke. playing only. but the more i think the more sad and angry i am why why he want to lie? is last year and he say is on 2007? i dont get it.. i didnt call him today... i didnt get to sleep.. i didint get to eat... everything seem so painfull...


I hope my tears can wash my brain... wash away what i have saw.. I dont want myself in this way.. i hate it... i really hate it alot... i am so stress that i can any how scold people for nothing.. when my dog did something wrong today.. i cane them so hurt... even later i see i feel the pain... how i wish today will come fast and i get to school how i wish the night wont come and i wont that hurt... i am not going to use facebook that offten anymore... All it bring is just hurts...

Labels: i am hurt again and again....

Tuesday, January 12, 2010 ♥ 9:03 PM

Hihi...

Recently... I am stress of my study.. Hehe... Good or bad? I dont like man.. Hehe....

i dont know what to update.. so short (:

erm... over all.. I am stress.. Haha... Longer school time. But not as long as ITE want... Haha... But tired. Wake up early.... Hai =3

Oh and i am trying to slim down.. haha.. new year coming. so must slim down a bit... haha...

ok la. i update other time.... bye...

Thursday, January 7, 2010 ♥ 5:52 PM

We are ok. But today cause i added Niq in my facebook and he is angry again... I dont know why u see... And i am sorry that i have to delete Niq...

Ok.. Some times i can understand.. Cause we both are not in the same country and he scared that i will be taken away by other guys... I understand.. Is the same thing i feel when he is not normal... Ok.. I dont know..

Just ok for like 3 days? Than angry? Why cant he just say nicely and ask me to delete him or what? Haiyo... Why ar...

Nvm la.. ANgry angry la... I also cant do anything to stop him from getting angry.. No la. He got say before if i go HK and stay with him than he wont angry of little things?! lol.. I dont know....

Hai..