I wan to live good... Maybe staying alive i really will get a chance to have my little one again... I told my little one... One day.. When i am able to feed u.. Come back to me.. I told my little one... I will study hard.. I cant keep you because i need to study... I hope my little one can understand...

Little one.. I really hope u will understand... I will miss u.. Remember u... Nobody will forget u...

OK... Not goonna update about little one anymore i hope so....

Gonna go Malaysia later... Bye bye Singapore... Lol.. Haha.. Tml Singapore birthday la... Lol... How u all spend ur long weekend? I oversea... Go play.. Relax myself... Too many bad things happened... And its all over.. I will start a fresh..

Dum dum, Yok Chan THANKS Alot Alot.. When i am so damn down You all are there for me... THANKS..... LOve u ppl(: Haha...

Somethngs even i dont bear to let go.. Its still gone.. No point standing here and get hurt... I rather move on.. It might be painful.. But atleast after a while it will be ok...

I have lots of thanks to almost everyine around me... Even Him...
Thanks for being there for me, comfort me when i am down, sad, depress, Stress out..... Thanks lots.. Thank him for letting me noe how he is really like.. Selfish... Cant live in poor... Money face... Damn CB... Forget it.. On fire again... But his image on my mind will nv change... Cause when he care... He love.. His angry... And all those feeling we have is true.. Really thank him... I noe he do many things for my good... No bad... Thanks...

I dont noe what can i update...... I dont feel like updating... I have been hold by him so long.. and follow him... But now... I am alone.. Walking alone.. Feel so lost... Dont noe where can i move to... No one is there to guide me... I am use to being with him.. following him...

I am so stress out... I dont noe what to do... How I wish I will jus leave... And nv come back... Why everythings jus come one shot go... I cant take it... I really cant... My heart is aching and its broken... I start to lost my breath... I start to think.... When am I gonna die? Will I be able to meet my little one? I lost control of myself... I lost temper... I hate everything around me... I hate Myself... I even hate to talk... I hate to cry.. I hate to think back.. I hate to miss my little one... I hate it... I even hate him...

Why? Why he jus cant fit into my shoe and think how will i feel? I dont noe what u said is true or not.. It also doesnt matter anymore.. He ended the way he wan.. Is jus like a chinese soung... I let him chose the way he want to end.... He make me fall... But now.. He wan me to climb up myself... I got cuts...Blue blacks... Achs... I am hurt.. All over my body... I really cant hold long... I am gonna give up.. And drown...

When i am at those high floor... When i have damager stuffs with me.. I start to think.. Should I do it? I am really gonna go crazy.. Really... Why? I give in so much and we are so ok in the past.. Jus cause of money jus cause u cant live without what u have in the past... u chose to end our relationship... U think is worth it... U wan it to be worth it...

I really wish my little one will bring me go!!! I can sleep and nv wake up... I am cry and go blind.. I can listen to MP3 till i am deaf... I can eat wrong food and go mute... I can lost both hand...  Best is.. I can spoiled my brain and lost my memory... And start fresh...  So that i wont see u hear ur voice cant talk to u cant contact u and dont remember u.. That will be good for both of us...

Little one... Hold on a little while more.. I will be meeting u soon.... Wait for me ok.. I miss u.. I wan u my little wan....

I really dont noe what am i now.. A bitch? A third party? I am both.. I am a BITCH and third party...

Sorry readers... As i didnt post for long time...

Got no mood for it... But now feeling better.. Slightly better... Everything is fine with me... Still alive.. But when I am gonna die.. I have no idea... Feeling giddy this two days... Wasnt really well... Haha...


Mood isnt real good today... Cause of what happen in the morning... Jus one last thing.. Why cant i keep it? You ass-hole... Jus last thing u also wan keep... Why cant give me?? I will keep it properly de... Pls la....

Nvm.. I noe u wont.. You *&^%$......... Arggggggggg........

Dont noe what will happen next...

Can something real good happen.. Currently.. Everythings seem sooooooooooooooo BAD!!!