The awful feelings

Feeling so low.. So lonely... So tired... So bored... Only left with 2 papers... I don't know what other kinds of lies will u still say to me in the near future... Y do u have to be like this? I just wan u to know. I love u... U said no feeling between us... But if no... Y do u still care for me do much. I am confuse... I wan to know... Just wanna know... Do u love me... I don't wan to know more or ask more... I jus wan to know whether u love me.. Just wanna have u to listen to me n have more time for me..

Actually was sad

Actually I was really sad. Really sad u will say that to me... Y u just keeps on lying... I am totally tired of this... Wonder y no respond from me when u told me something just now... Cause I have alrdy expected it... Act like I dun care... U words like knife slicing through my wounds... Maybe... I am too smart to know so much... If really I want to know so much.. Just one call n que will be ans... I know bt I just dun wan to know that u lied... Fact is also fact... Nth can change... If I will wan to expose u out. U r long gone in my sight... Y will I harm u when I still love u... Y do u have to says words to hit me to the end spot... Y do u say so much yet care so much... We r nt in relationship but a trade only. No feeling in it.. This is what u said... Tell me y.. I put in so much.. Sacrifice so much for u. But all I have is those words from u... Y the person I wan the most by my side is always owned by others... Y do u have to use those words to hurt me. Y do u have to say those lie to trick me.. Y can't u just tell me u r a married man n automatically I will leave u... Even u call u bother I wont go back... Y do u still keep me at ur side when u treat me like that?
Last time when I know u lie I gt very angry but now.. Is more on disappointment... I always wanted to ask u... Do u ever love me? Maybe I nv gt a chance to ask... Because I will nv ask n say nv know...