Haiz... I dont know what to say u see...
My feeling now wasnt really ok.. i am so tired of life u know... Starting to hate the person i dote alwasy as her attitube suck to the core...
Starting to dislike this when is not in my way.... Starting to taink of many thoughts when i am not ok... Haiz... So many things in my heart yet no one to say to.. Feeling so lost... What parent s do? My dad only know money and study...
My mum... always never mind never mind... Haiz... What i want is some one that can really understand me and listen to me and give me advise.... but some times... i may not hear or agree... Haiz.. that is just me... since when i will fully agree on something? study hard they think i must... spend money they think not worth... what they want huh... u tell me lor... sian.. i see also sian... i can say no one understand me well.. maybe can say i change lots.. as thing change and surrounding change.. i start smoking again for 2 months le... this is me... very rot.. slashing myself again.. so i can look more emo.. or can say when i show it to some one.. at least he care... i think only he understand me well.. that is K.R.P... only he... know how to deal with me... last time he will be there for me... bt now... is i am there for him and he is there for me... two people who love each other. but yet cant be together... isnt it a very sad and fucking idiot thing... many reason to why... but i will bw always there and wait for him... maybe after all the round i turn... my heart only have him.. tried to give up tried to hate him.. but in the end... i didnt manage to... casue he have taken my whole heart. and no body will be able to replace him.. just like even in the future i maybe have children... but the want i take away will always be my first child....
i think i should end here... look like bloggin have become unpopular le....and not much bloggin haven been done... so... ya i should end here....
Everyone please bless me will luck and good health... thanks u(:
I bless every one... with my whole heart that u will be bless with luck and health (:
