Pauline's

Re-edited(:

Sorry for not posting yesterday.. As yesterday sec house upstairs dont have electricity... Than cannot update...

Papa come back from Japan lor.. Bought me lots staff... Like my Porter bag(:(: And Burberry Bag.. And two bottle of ABSOLUT Vokda(:(: And have sweet sweet to eat(: Yummmmm...

Jus now i online suddenly Meng Suan know from ITE de talk to me say I miss u bitch.. So funny.. He skip school again.. So bad...

Some times I am really thinking deep down in my heart. Why are we together? I mean like why u wan to be with me? Is it because of money or is it real love. Cause some time u really make me feel that is because i am "rich" than u are like this.. Can u tell me the fact. The real motive in ur mind. I hate this kind of feeling. I really hate it so much that this may cause us to be apart from each other... It even hurt u noe. I dont noe how to tell u this. Even sms u... I am really lost with u.. I dont noe what i can do except for waiting for the real colour to appear... Baby.. Pls tell me that u love me not because I am "rich".. U start to hurt me )":

Love is hard to understand or even noe.

But when times u are lost it helps alot.

Some time u may nt feel right cause u are thinking too much.

Some time u jus hope that things wont be the worst thinking u had.

Some time, there is so many some time,

but why cant I have some time to understand u more?

Is it because u dont wish to let me understand u more?

Or is it u still nv change?

Maybe is because I am a "good staff" So u jus keep it as a spare?

Or u are jus the same as the old u?

Really thought u changed.. But i think I am worng. U didnt.. U are still the same old u...

You hurt me Baby.. U really make me love and hate u at times. That is why i am lost that am i still loving you or i hate u?

Really need to noe. Really hope that i have the courage to ask u. But I think i am unable to. As i am afriad that i may lose u. Scared that it will spoiled our relationship..

Is really hard.. Starting I thought that we have fact so once again we are together. but i think we are jus wasting each other time..

When worst thing happen U will only tell me"dont care" this is the only console word u will say when i am down or with trouble..

I even think lots that do u really mean that u love me? Or is it jus a word that came out of ur mouth not from ur heart..

Some how I think or soon.. I will let u see my blog. So that u can really noe how I feel everyday about u..

U can make me really happy and u can also make me real down...

Baby. I jus wan the real u. The wan who love by heart. The wan who real bother.

Baby I love u. Not like last time. I dint even bother u. But now i dont noe why. I love u.

Feeling is hard to say by words.

Feeling are hard to understand by speaking.

Feeling are harder to understand when u nv even show a sign of it.

Baby. I thing i noe is i really love u....

But u are starting to hurt me.