That emotion that brings me along...

Sometime.... I feel so despair.... But i am not at all....
Sometime... I just feel so irreated.... But not because of you....
Sometime.... Emotion just goes like this.. like waves.... up and down....
Happy with this but with that...
Happy u came even its late.. but Sad that you have to leave....
Happy that i can see you... But sad that i cant see u always...
If there is only happy.. how good it will be???
If there isnt such things as emotion... everyone living in this world will be always happy... and not depress... sad...

I feel so lucky to have u... I feel so good when i accompany me... I feel so nice when i speak to you on the phone... I feel so touch when you comfort me... I feel... so much... If one day u are not with me... how will i be???

I asked this when i know K.R.P doesnt want me... But... he didnt accompany me... He dont really care... He dont really speak on the phone with me.... I wonder... For the 2 years i am with him... He nv bought me a single thing...

But Dear bought me... just for the 1 month plus together... he bought me a shirt... A box of chocolate.... and some other things... Wonder why he cares so much... does this mean he really love me? He cares even what i wear... He dont want people have bad point of view on me... He dont let people bully me.... I dont know...

Some times.. I really feel like letting cear go... because.... I dont know... I am so selfish.... Only want myself to be happy.. But on the other hand... I am hurting someone...

I once ask him... do u even got that feeling to ask for break off... He said yes. But he dont bear... The reason why yes. is because he feel sorry for me.. He feel sorry for his W... He didnt say much... once i heard it.. my tears just drop... i started crying so badly.... After that he say he have to go fetch his W. so we ended the call.. That is when i start my crying thing... After a while.. he called again... he check to see I am ok... But he knew that i am crying. he asked me not to think so much. ask me to rest early... due to him... I have many sleepless night... when i think about him those not sweet but trouble want... Then I am unable to sleep... And of course... He will nag and scold. when he ask what u thinking that stop you from sleeping... I didnt answer... I just change topic....

Thats my love life....
I got to go now.. Bye...